6 Months

Shew Kaelyn is 6 months already and ever so cute. Got her 1st tooth 4 days before she was 6 months, was a bit of a surprise as I wasn't expecting it? Slow or hopeful I don't know, just I didn't get much sleep for 10 days, shew now knowing what is to come ... yikes! How many teeth do they get?

She is sitting nicely now and loves to sing and babble and screech and blow raspberries. So so cute, except when she does it between 12 and 1am in the morning (the last 3 mornings) Like she has a little karaoke party going on in her cot!

This week she started peering around things to see what disappears or what she can hear, which is so sweet!

I am so sad today though, feel lost? No clue why? Feel like I have lost myself if that makes sense? I will have to think of getting work, but am scared and feel a bit useless ... oh boy I am a bit of a sorry case today!

5 months

So Kaelyn is nearly 5 months, I just can't believe it at all! She is the most precious little girl out. She smiles at everyone and watches them like she has known them for years, even if it is some arb stranger at the shops who stops to talk to her!

She is still waking 2 times for a feed most nights, but settles herself quite easily at night which I am grateful for and sleeps from about 6:30pm to 6am, which is great. During the day is a different story, she tends to fight sleep, but it is becoming easier with every passing week! BUT she is sleeping on our bed on her doughnut during the day, I don't put her in her room, cause my neighbours are so noisy in their offices in their garden during the day it is so annoying! But when she starts rolling ..... mmm so better start getting her used to it now.

I am going to start her on solids in the next few weeks, which is exciting and daunting all in 1. I just can not believe she is nearly 5 months! How did we get here so fast?

Time

How can my little tiny baby angel be 4 months on Saturday? How did we get here so fast? I love watching her developments and they are coming fast and furiously now, but I miss that tiny little being that could fit in the crook of my arm! Her little personality is coming out now and she is such a happy child and rather cheeky too. She is so curious and I take her to the shops in the front pack and she absolutely loves it, loves the lights and colours and if we take her for a walk around the neighbourhood in it, she stares at the trees and lamp posts, it is oh so cute. She doesn't like to be held face in, that is way too boring.

She has grown so much and is above average in height at 62cm at 15.5 days and average (which I was told is big for a girl) at 6.05kg. She is a long string bean and is only now starting to get a few little fat wrinkles on her thighs. Her 3 - 6 month baby grows are not going to last her till 6 months, that is for sure.

I have been breast feeding exclusively for 3 months, 4 weeks and she seems to be thriving. She still wakes up basically 2 times a night and in general is a good sleeper, but we do have bad times of her not sleeping well.

I never knew you could love a little being so much. She has brought so much light and love to my life, I am truly blessed!

A delayed post

My gorgeous baby girl was born on the 15th of January 2010 and is already 11 weeks and 2 days old. So much has happened in this last 11 weeks and I won't be able to put it all down, but I am so in love with her.

She was great till 2 weeks and then started being very unhappy and screaming all the time, turns out (we think) she is allergic to egg yolk? Once I stopped eating eggs, she stopped screaming?
We also took her to the chiro and the poor girls back was so out! The chiro was so amazing and so good with her, he has a little one 1 week older than Kaelyn! She in the beginning cried when on her back, after the chiro, she loves being on her back! Amazing!

She started to smile properly (even though a little uncontrolled) at 5 weeks and 2 days! It just makes my heart melt!

Now she is already more of a solid baby and not just a lump of baby. She can sit if I hold her, she has started a kind of laugh, which isn't really a laugh yet. Anything that happens to get into her hand goes up to her mouth. But if it goes over her eyes she cries even though she is still forcing whatever it is into her mouth. She makes me laugh.

She has G's ears, my eyes and thumbs, my mom's eyebrows and every thing else comes from G's side of the family. But she is cute.

I heard about this love you had for a child once it was born and how this love grew, but I never truly understood the love that you have for your child. I just love her so much and I love her 11 weeks worth of "more " than I did when she was born and it just keeps on growing.

I had to go onto Eglanol in the beginning as I didn't want to snap, as it isn't an easy transgression from couple life to baby in your life and the wake ups and the crying for who knows what reason, but I am nearly totally weened of of it and I don't resent her for those big crying sessions in the middle of the night anymore. The are just part of my life and we get through them all. Not that she has many to be honest. Only when I have too many green veggies.

Breast feeding is easy, I really enjoy it and I guess I am lucky as she feeds every 2 hours, but sometimes every 3,depending. BUT she won't take a bottle at all, screams blue murder when a bottle is given to her! Doesn't matter if it is expressed milk or formula, she refuses to take it. mmm!

I just love my baby!

No sign of Labour

Ok so today being the 11 January, I am 39 weeks and 5 days pregnant and I was so sure I was going to have my little BeeGee around 39 weeks. I guess it was just wishful thinking?

I am so so grateful to be pregnant and I have loved so much of it. But I have been 1 of the lucky few who has had morning sickness the whole way through. Yup you read right. I throw up 9 out of 10 mornings and if I don't carry almonds in my pocket, I will throw up during the day too. I have felt like my stomach is going to pop since about 30 weeks and it gets more so every day. So I am at the stage now where I really want her out and I want to meet her and hold her and kiss her and love her. Show her to the world.

I so want to go into labour even if I have to have a c-sec. I am not too keen on being induced, but the Dr said that with my appt on Thurs, if I haven't gone into labour he might induce me on Friday. But do I want that, or do I just want a plain old c-sec if she doesn't appear by then. I hate having to make these decisions ... I really wanted nature to take its course and decide for me on the birth route, but at this moment in time, I think I have to make that decision.

Yesterday I had all this energy and was trimming plants in the garden and cleaning the front of the kitchen cupboards and doing loads of stuff. Went for tea at my BIL house in this afternoon and as we left I was getting more and more shooting pains up my legs, I didn't want to sit and that is all I have wanted to do for months now. I thought hey maybe this is it. But to my disappointment ... no such luck, no sign of BeeGee at all during the night. I want to cry. I just want her so bad now. Plus I want to be a little less uncomfy, can't say I am not selfish here too!

G won't let me drive anymore. Because of those shooting pains. Says all I need is 1 while driving and then I put myself and our child in danger, which I agree with and haven't actually driven much for ages, but I hate being house bound and relying on other people.

On Saturday we went to see Avatar, was the 1st movie I have seen in ages and also during the day in like 6 years. G and I don't go to movies during the day, as it wastes precious time? So was quite surprised when I mentioned it to him and he agreed!

Anyway ... all I am doing now is vegging and hoping and praying my little BeeGee comes out healthy and happy very very soon!