Yay Yay it's Friday

I am so happy it is Friday!

I have a busy weekend planned between meeting up with an old school friend and a braai for rugby and a party, then Botanical gardens on Sunday (weather permitting) to see my cousins and the heavy weight Jackson weighing in at 10.7kg @ 6 months!

All in all should be a good weekend, hope I can stay awake!

Change is Scary

I work for my boss and we are a small 2 man band and I do all the admin and I go see a few customers too. But I hate seeing customers, I am shy and I get nervous and all in all I avoid it.

Yesterday my boss drops a bomb on my head and says he is taking all the admin away from me and giving it to his wife in Durban and I must go on the road Sales & Marketing. He wants her to come up for a week in August and learn the accounts and then by the end of November she will have learnt over 4 months all the rest of the admin. I am trying to figure out how pregnant I will be and driving around all the time and and and, he says it will be up and running properly by the time I come off Maternity Leave. But Um what does he want me to do in December? Does he want me doing all of this whilst pregnant now. I am so confused. I now have to get a full time nanny which I didn't want and so much to think about, but have to get further in my pregnancy before I worry too much I guess.

I need a kick in my rear end cause I am bored sh!tless and I need change, wasn't quite the change I was expecting, but guess it is a start.

But my boss is such a sneaky conniving bum, I just wonder what else is up his sleeve. I have to get UIF and he is hinting at 3 months, but I want 4 seen as he is stuffing me around I won't be as kind as I was, as I was going to help out from 6 weeks seen as the main office is in my back garden! But will I be giving him ammo to fire me if I demand. So difficult with that man, he is not a nice man, he can be, but don't' think he likes being kind! (eg. he had a mistress for 19.5 years of his married life!) What kind of man is that?

I think I mustn't think about it too much now and just get past the pregnancy milestones! Otherwise I will go mad!

My boss is on his way & I am tired

Shew waking up at 5:30 when my Dad turns off the alarm every morning is taking some getting used to. I usually wake up with G's alarm at 6:15, which is only 45min later, but 45min is huge when you sleeping. So a bit tired and then by 3pm I am tired again, but find if I keep plodding I can keep going.

I am eating like a horse, I just never stop and it is so strange for me as I have never been a big big eater. With my last pregnancy I just couldn't eat, I felt ill all the time and the thought of food just KO'd me. This time round I am eating for 10 somehow. G laughs and tells his mom I even wake up and eat in the middle of the night, which is a lie as I only start on the Brazil nuts after I have been woken up at 5:30, so technically it is morning, even though it is still dark!

My boss is up from Durban today and I am not looking forward to it. At least we not gallivanting around the country seeing customers today and tomorrow, but we are brain storming and he has a list of ten thousand things he wants me to do. Which is good, but I am tired, I don't feel like doing anything too hectic! Oh well, will just have to grin and bare it. He says I have done loads of homework, hope you have done yours too. I am like what homework, did he give me any? 2 hours and counting! Then my freedom is gone for 2 days!

Sad

I don't expect a huge amount of anything from my family and I love them all to bits, but sometimes they make me so so sad. My folks moved to Howick on Tuesday last week. In the entire week of speaking to them and finding out how the move was and all with phone calls and such, not once did anyone ask how I am feeling? How am I? How is this pregnancy? I don't expect constant anything, but just once would have been nice!

My mom phoned my Dad last night to see if he had gotten here ok and she said "Hello, I am so tired, the dogs exhaust me, I was out for tea twice with people here .... are you still pregnant? "pause" and then carried on talking about her ... " Just makes me want to cry. We had my sister and over and my Dad is stayng with us from last night for a braai and G said "Belinda is eating so much and not as nauseous this time", then I think they clicked, but it wasn't a big click!

Why do I expect more? Why am I so alone? I love my family, but shit they make me want to cry!

how I met my Hubby

I feel shy copying all the bloggers I follow, but why not!

I was married before to what I thought was the love of my life, but it was just his looks & power over me. He was bad news! I was married for a whopping 14 months, but was with the idiot for 4.5 years! He had blinkers over my eyes! He left me for someone else, but it was the best thing that happened to me and I have never looked back.

5 month after he left I was with a friend and we had to go fetch her brother from his friends house as they had just gotten back from a boys holiday. So I tagged along and it was the 1st time I met her brother and some of his friends. The guy who's house we fetched him from was Gareth's. I saw him and though nerdy, but oh so cute, but left it at that ... I was still enjoying single life.

I started rock climbing when my ex left and loved it, went with the friend & her brother (the one we went to fetch) every weekend and I loved it. 3.5 months after I saw G for the 1st time, they said the guys are all coming to climb too! And guess who was with them? Yup Gareth. I still thought wow and I could talk to him and didn't freeze up. Now all these guys are electrical engineers, and engineers are special right ... well my friend has 2 doctorates and is 1 brainy girl. Anyway we were all talking and G asked me ... so what do you have a doctorate in? Well I nearly died, I have never been to university, I never studied, I just started working straight from school, then traveled overseas for 1.5 years, so ja. I thought oh well I will be too dumb for him didn't know what to say, my friend saved my little arse and said she works as .... blah blah blah and moved on. I still felt dumb! Later he aid he was having a braai at his house the following weekend and asked if we wanted to go, but I assumed he didn't mean me?

The next weekend my friend said so you coming to G's braai, I was like me... I didn't know I was invited. But I went and G had this other girl there that followed hm around so ended up chatting to his brother all night. But I am dead shy when I 1st meet people so mainly stayed by myself.

A month later 1 of the guys had a braai at his place and I was invited again and so was my cousin. Now my cousin is drop dead gorgeous, all men fall for her! I told her who he was and I thought he was cute and he spoke a bit to her and she turned to me and said that man really likes you? I said me, no way!

We had a dvd valentines day 1 night and he was there, I think it was a Mon or Wed.

That following Monday I was out with my mom for dinner and my phone rang and it was G asking me out for dinner. My mom said if I wasn't sitting down I would have fallen over I went white and then lobster red! He had asked for 2 diff nights and 1 I couldn't but the other I could. So we went. Man was I so nervous I just giggled all night, like a little school girl??? I invited him for a cooked meal the following weekend and we saw each other once a week for ages and it turned into twice a week, was truly amazing. We became friends long before lovers and it took him 1 month to hold my hand and 2 months to kiss me, but boy it was just amazing. Found out he checked out my cousin, but realised fast she was hard work and she looked fake to him and he just found me so fascinating! ??? Me??? The chick that followed him was really just a good friend, she is still now! He didn't care that I hadn't studied, was quite glad I hadn't cause his ex was a fanatic. Oh before we even started dating I told him I would never ever get married again. I said been there done that bought the t-shirt - Clever hey? We never lived together, but he would stay over once a week, that is all. All I can say is had very good morals!

We had been dating 1 year 5 months when he asked me to marry him and I said yes. We bought a house and moved in the October 2006 and we were married 24 February 2007. I am even more in love now than I was when I met him and wouldn't swap him for the world.

Fidget

I am bird sitting my sisters bird while my sister is helping my folks move and having a holiday at the same time. Poor little thing. She is a hands on bird, want attention all the time and I wish I had more time to do that for her, but find it hard, especially when my attention isn't on her 100% and the cats are around. I feel safer having her in the cage. Both her and Olive are sitting outside my office door in the sun on the grass and Olive is digging holes (for a change) and Fidget keeps going down onto the grass to see what is so exciting that Olive is doing down there. Then keeps yelling "What you doing' "Where you been". Olive isn't a hands on bird. The people who had her before abused her and teased her and pulled her tail and such, so she goes for hands. I have tried to get her to be ok, but she only is for short periods of time. But she loves to be picked up in a towel and put on my chest and cuddles that way, she makes sweet nothings to me and we have a good cuddle. My little baby. Plus she gives the cats attitude, if they come anywhere near her, she bites them. So our house other than having the 2 cats, 3 tropical fish tanks, 2 ponds and Olive, we now have Fidget for a week. It is a real zoo here.

Went Belly dancing last night, but didn't enjoy it. I had a sore stomach (gas)...???? And just was so tired from the day. But got home and G had run my bath, opened the garage so I could just drive in, so I only had to make a stirfry, which I had prepared before I went, but I was in bed and fast asleep by 9:45. But woke up at 2 and then struggled to sleep again.

I wonder if Acer will bring my pc back today and fixed. I am wondering if that is wishful thinking? I will give them 1 more hour then phone and start bugging them! I want my real PC!

Saying bye bye for now

So went to help my folks with the last things and sort out the dogs while the movers were packing. My poor mom, she is in such a state, she doesn't handle stress well and moving is stressful. They have been in that house for 21 years and sorting 21 years of stuff out has taken a year and today loads was chucked. Loads into my car (thanks mom) ,not, as she decided I must have this stuff. Life where am I going to put it and what would I do with it! Funny, but will pass it on the needy after a couple of months. I am sure they won't miss it when they come to visit!

The people who were moving in officially can move in tomorrow and organised a company to put a pool cover on and ADT to come install an alarm at the same time the movers were moving everything out. I mean how dumb are some people. So had to take the dogs to the main bedroom so they couldn't get out and the pool people took so long, they pee'd on the carpet ... whoops! I tried to clean it, but half the detergents were packed, but ummm what did they expect? hee hee I think it is funny! The dogs telling them what the thought of them ...

At least my 1 sister was driving down with the folks to help them unpack! My poor folks! Are so knackered! Their cars were full to brimming. I gave the dogs Valium (as per vets prescription) and it worked on the little dog, but not the bigger one. Hope the journey down goes ok!

Can't believe an era has passed now ... time for new and time for changes! Good changes I hope!