Total change in life again

Kaelyn is nearly 17 months and life is changing in a big way from Monday!

I start work! I haven't worked since September 2009 ... retrenched when I was 7 months pregnant with Kaelyn, was then lucky enough to stay home with her for 16 1/2 months and have eventually been lucky enough to find a job working half day so I still get to be with her in the afternoons.

I have had her at school for 2 hours a day for 1 1/2 weeks and then a normal 7:30 - 2 day for a week and it has been heart breaking, seeing her cry, but she sounds like she has a different personality at school vs home, been told she is very sociable and will talk to anyone, she is independent, that she feeds herself with a spoon and at home she clings to me like glue and wants me to carry her around a lot of the time. Part of me thinks this will be the best thing for her and me, but a part of me still wonders if I am doing the right thing.

Gareth is away for 6 days and I have to start work and do the mad morning rush alone for the 1st 3 days, which is freaking me out a little, but like most thins I worry about ... they come to naught! They go smoothly and stress free ??? (I wish)

6 Months

Shew Kaelyn is 6 months already and ever so cute. Got her 1st tooth 4 days before she was 6 months, was a bit of a surprise as I wasn't expecting it? Slow or hopeful I don't know, just I didn't get much sleep for 10 days, shew now knowing what is to come ... yikes! How many teeth do they get?

She is sitting nicely now and loves to sing and babble and screech and blow raspberries. So so cute, except when she does it between 12 and 1am in the morning (the last 3 mornings) Like she has a little karaoke party going on in her cot!

This week she started peering around things to see what disappears or what she can hear, which is so sweet!

I am so sad today though, feel lost? No clue why? Feel like I have lost myself if that makes sense? I will have to think of getting work, but am scared and feel a bit useless ... oh boy I am a bit of a sorry case today!

5 months

So Kaelyn is nearly 5 months, I just can't believe it at all! She is the most precious little girl out. She smiles at everyone and watches them like she has known them for years, even if it is some arb stranger at the shops who stops to talk to her!

She is still waking 2 times for a feed most nights, but settles herself quite easily at night which I am grateful for and sleeps from about 6:30pm to 6am, which is great. During the day is a different story, she tends to fight sleep, but it is becoming easier with every passing week! BUT she is sleeping on our bed on her doughnut during the day, I don't put her in her room, cause my neighbours are so noisy in their offices in their garden during the day it is so annoying! But when she starts rolling ..... mmm so better start getting her used to it now.

I am going to start her on solids in the next few weeks, which is exciting and daunting all in 1. I just can not believe she is nearly 5 months! How did we get here so fast?

Time

How can my little tiny baby angel be 4 months on Saturday? How did we get here so fast? I love watching her developments and they are coming fast and furiously now, but I miss that tiny little being that could fit in the crook of my arm! Her little personality is coming out now and she is such a happy child and rather cheeky too. She is so curious and I take her to the shops in the front pack and she absolutely loves it, loves the lights and colours and if we take her for a walk around the neighbourhood in it, she stares at the trees and lamp posts, it is oh so cute. She doesn't like to be held face in, that is way too boring.

She has grown so much and is above average in height at 62cm at 15.5 days and average (which I was told is big for a girl) at 6.05kg. She is a long string bean and is only now starting to get a few little fat wrinkles on her thighs. Her 3 - 6 month baby grows are not going to last her till 6 months, that is for sure.

I have been breast feeding exclusively for 3 months, 4 weeks and she seems to be thriving. She still wakes up basically 2 times a night and in general is a good sleeper, but we do have bad times of her not sleeping well.

I never knew you could love a little being so much. She has brought so much light and love to my life, I am truly blessed!

A delayed post

My gorgeous baby girl was born on the 15th of January 2010 and is already 11 weeks and 2 days old. So much has happened in this last 11 weeks and I won't be able to put it all down, but I am so in love with her.

She was great till 2 weeks and then started being very unhappy and screaming all the time, turns out (we think) she is allergic to egg yolk? Once I stopped eating eggs, she stopped screaming?
We also took her to the chiro and the poor girls back was so out! The chiro was so amazing and so good with her, he has a little one 1 week older than Kaelyn! She in the beginning cried when on her back, after the chiro, she loves being on her back! Amazing!

She started to smile properly (even though a little uncontrolled) at 5 weeks and 2 days! It just makes my heart melt!

Now she is already more of a solid baby and not just a lump of baby. She can sit if I hold her, she has started a kind of laugh, which isn't really a laugh yet. Anything that happens to get into her hand goes up to her mouth. But if it goes over her eyes she cries even though she is still forcing whatever it is into her mouth. She makes me laugh.

She has G's ears, my eyes and thumbs, my mom's eyebrows and every thing else comes from G's side of the family. But she is cute.

I heard about this love you had for a child once it was born and how this love grew, but I never truly understood the love that you have for your child. I just love her so much and I love her 11 weeks worth of "more " than I did when she was born and it just keeps on growing.

I had to go onto Eglanol in the beginning as I didn't want to snap, as it isn't an easy transgression from couple life to baby in your life and the wake ups and the crying for who knows what reason, but I am nearly totally weened of of it and I don't resent her for those big crying sessions in the middle of the night anymore. The are just part of my life and we get through them all. Not that she has many to be honest. Only when I have too many green veggies.

Breast feeding is easy, I really enjoy it and I guess I am lucky as she feeds every 2 hours, but sometimes every 3,depending. BUT she won't take a bottle at all, screams blue murder when a bottle is given to her! Doesn't matter if it is expressed milk or formula, she refuses to take it. mmm!

I just love my baby!

No sign of Labour

Ok so today being the 11 January, I am 39 weeks and 5 days pregnant and I was so sure I was going to have my little BeeGee around 39 weeks. I guess it was just wishful thinking?

I am so so grateful to be pregnant and I have loved so much of it. But I have been 1 of the lucky few who has had morning sickness the whole way through. Yup you read right. I throw up 9 out of 10 mornings and if I don't carry almonds in my pocket, I will throw up during the day too. I have felt like my stomach is going to pop since about 30 weeks and it gets more so every day. So I am at the stage now where I really want her out and I want to meet her and hold her and kiss her and love her. Show her to the world.

I so want to go into labour even if I have to have a c-sec. I am not too keen on being induced, but the Dr said that with my appt on Thurs, if I haven't gone into labour he might induce me on Friday. But do I want that, or do I just want a plain old c-sec if she doesn't appear by then. I hate having to make these decisions ... I really wanted nature to take its course and decide for me on the birth route, but at this moment in time, I think I have to make that decision.

Yesterday I had all this energy and was trimming plants in the garden and cleaning the front of the kitchen cupboards and doing loads of stuff. Went for tea at my BIL house in this afternoon and as we left I was getting more and more shooting pains up my legs, I didn't want to sit and that is all I have wanted to do for months now. I thought hey maybe this is it. But to my disappointment ... no such luck, no sign of BeeGee at all during the night. I want to cry. I just want her so bad now. Plus I want to be a little less uncomfy, can't say I am not selfish here too!

G won't let me drive anymore. Because of those shooting pains. Says all I need is 1 while driving and then I put myself and our child in danger, which I agree with and haven't actually driven much for ages, but I hate being house bound and relying on other people.

On Saturday we went to see Avatar, was the 1st movie I have seen in ages and also during the day in like 6 years. G and I don't go to movies during the day, as it wastes precious time? So was quite surprised when I mentioned it to him and he agreed!

Anyway ... all I am doing now is vegging and hoping and praying my little BeeGee comes out healthy and happy very very soon!

End of the year

I last posted the end of October. Man life waits for no man ... or woman!

This year has flown. It has been 1 roller coaster ride of a year, I must be honest. It has thrown us lemon and rotten eggs, but ti has also thrown is rose petals and love.

Everything worked out for the best work wise. My lawyer was a super star and I got the car, it is officially in my name and he paid me the amount I specified. Which is a blessing in disguise ... all sorted before the end of the year. I had to get new tyres, new shocks and some brush or bush or something replaced too, was damn expensive and took alot of the money I got paid out, but way way cheaper than buying a new car! What a blessing! I went to my folks straight after being retrenched and I felt so at peace. My folks spoilt me and baby rotten! I ate like a horse and gained 2kg in 1 week!

Got back to Jhb and went to sort out UIF ... seeing is believing that they will start paying me 4 weeks from when I went ... meant to be 24 Dec? Ja right. But guess you never know. I am not enjoying not having my own money, that is 1 scary thing, but am sure it will get better!

But was saying to G over the weekend, this year has been 1 roller coaster between my MC in Jan and falling pregnant again in May and The car battle with my ex boss and then the retrenchment and all and for the 1st time this year I feel at peace. At peace with myself and the world! The weight has gone from my shoulders and I feel free! (other than not earning money)

I have painted every nook and cranny in the baby's room and I have been and gotten the basics of what baby needs and what I need for hospital. I have baked and baked and baked ... I have made jam and bottled fruit! I have seen friends ... I have sewed and sewed some more. I have washed the new born clothes and blankets. I have packed the baby's bag ... mine is more of a challenge! And eventually the room is coming to an end and things are packed away.

I had an awesome Baby shower and was spoilt rotten!

I have 1 month left, can you believe it ... 1 month, if she decides to stay in that long. Which I am hoping she does. Or maybe 1 week less, but no less than that. Gynae is away until 2nd Jan, so I am hoping she sticks it out till then!

4 weeks though ... everyone says the last month is the hardest, which I can now understand! I am just hoping that because it is a busy month ... it will go a bit faster. I have started drinking raspberry leaf tea in the afternoons and that seems to be helping with my uncomfy feelings!

I can't believe the girls that were just in front of me with falling pregnant are about to have their babies ... a couple this week already. Where does time go? Good luck girls ... will be thinking of you! Loads!

Plus my friend is coming back from the UK with her baby, I can't wait!

Another friend is pregnant ... whoo hoo! Congrats girl!

And all my other friends babies are growing up so fast!

Christmas isn't at our place this year for a change, we decided that it was safer to do it elsewhere. So having it at the in-laws. But my folks are away and it is going to be 1 different Christmas this year!

Last Week

So this is my last week of work and I still have no idea on what is happening regarding pay and everything, damn the idiot! But the wheel turns and I must just have patience!

I can't believe I will suddenly be a house wife until baby comes cause then I become a stay at home mom, until I get a job again, but yikes it is a scary thought, I have had money and been working (only weekends & holidays to begin with until after school) since I was 13. So (blush blush) 20 years of having my own money and being independent and now suddenly I have to rely on G? Not that his salary alone covers our expenses, but still! This is a life changing mind blowing huge step for me and I am rather apprehensive.

What am I going to do with myself???? Next week I have to get a whole lot of things for my folks, as I am off to see them the following week for a week in Howick and obviously they miss certain things you can get in Jhb! So doing that, will bring a whole lot of the stuff inside to my outside office seen as it won't be an office anymore and will be an empty space!

The following week I am in Howick and G goes on his annual boys holiday! Glad for him, think he needs it quite badly at the moment.

Then ..... what happens? Yikes! ! ! I have until when ever baby Shaw decides to make her appearance to do what???? I guess I can sew a few things and pre cook a few things and then ???? What?? LOL guess I will surprise myself and have so much to do? I can hope hey?

I guess still will be trying to sort out lawyers and work kuk to begin with too, oh and then the CCMA, I have to do that no matter what! I am not laying down and being walked over .... I refuse ... I just hope I am taking the right steps along the way!

My pregnancy is going well, I feel baby Shaw all the time now and panic if I don't ... does it ever end??? My stomach has grown to huge proportions and I am loving it even though it is uncomfy a lot of the time! The heart burn isn't my friend, but can cope, but must say I am sick of eating salad!

We go for the 29 week scan on Wednesday ... already! Time she is flying! Can't wait for that!

I am soooooo going to miss my new found friends on OPM and the net and Skype. Girls you have kept me sane for the last few months and I can't wait to get back online to keep it up!

And I am really looking forward to the brunch on Saturday, to meet new people and ones I know, but haven't met!

Treacle

Geez it feels like I am dragging myself through treacle and not getting anywhere very fast at all. This whole thing with my boss seems to have been going on for months and months now! We still haven't come to any sort of conclusion, but I have spoken to a few labour lawyers and seen 1 too and I am getting screwed out of money, but not as much as I was hoping due to them structuring my salary backwards, go figure! Why oh why? There must be a reason!

Anyway on a positive note ... I have a lawyer on the car thing that hates my boss for a few reasons and is going to get me my car for minimal cost just to get back at him! whoo hoo ... there is a light, just not a big 1 yet!

My LO is doing well I think, turning and twisting and shew interesting feelings in my body, but love them cause then I know all is ok. We going for our 4D scan on Thursday and I am so looking forward to that. I really hope we can see alot and find out the sex for once and for all!

The baby's room is coming along. I still have to paint the window frames and today at that, but am struggling to find the energy! Cause they are coming to put in the carpet tomorrow. Then we can start moving stuff in, which is exciting!

Shew it is hot today, if the pool wasn't still too cold I would swim, that is for sure!

Life can change so quickly

G and I had a lovely time in Plett, we walked about 8km every day along the beaches and I read a load of books (4 Harry Potter books in 1 week, the last 4, so big books) and G dived a lot. All in all it was very relaxing and peaceful. We saw whales every day while we were there and I always find seeing whales and dolphins special.

I was a bit uncomfortable the whole time and baby didn't move too much, but still moved, so was worried, but not! Saturday arrived back in Jhb and as we got off the plane baby started going mad, so that was a relief.

Sunday G and I started painting babies room, taking a lot longer than we planned for, that is for sure! But starting to look good.

Monday lunch time I get an email from my boss to say he will be in Jhb and see me on Tuesday morning 8:30am.

He walks into the office with words of doom and gloom about how badly the company is doing and hana hana hana and he has to close Jhb office down? Which I was expecting, not cause we doing badly, but because I went against his wishes with the car, idiot! So he tells me that I must agree to a Separation Clause and he will pay me October and will sign the car over to me? I mean WTF? As in I must resign, I think not, but I don't give him any inkling that I am against this and say I will speak to my hubby and lawyer and speak the next day. He says he will be in my office at 8:30, so I said no I told you I had my gynae appointment so I will contact him once I am back! I speak to my lawyer and he dictates what I must write back, which I do and send an email to my boss, saying no I will not resign, retrench me if the company is doing so badly!

Wednesday we go for the 25 week scan and baby is doing well, laying breech, head up bum down, but there is loads of room in there Dr says, so not worried. He says baby is 868g, I mean how cute, nearly 1kg .... G and I are over the moon.

I climb back into the car and get a message from the boss saying he has to drop off a letter and pick up files, am I back yet, I mean really, idiot, give me time! So I make him wait from 8:30 till 9:30 ... and then say I am here!

He comes and drops off the proper documents for a retrenchment AND if he could shoot fire out his eyes I would be a burning bush. I mean he is in Jhb has no printer with him, so the slimy sleaze ball was just trying his luck! He had the docs with him anyway! He tells me to meet him at 12:30 on Wednesday in Modderfontein!

I get told by my lawyer, then a friend via her boss and my neighbour who is a lawyer that the boss is stuffed as he has gone about this all in the wrong way and I can sue his arse!

Wednesday I meet with the boss, as technically he has to read through the whole letter with me and ask questions and take minutes. He looks terrible (ag shampies man, NOT) and acts all sorry that he is doing this to me... like ja RIGHT! I ask what he is planning to give me and we can work from there. I don't bring up the car again and neither does he.

But if I don't get what is rightfully mine and the car that is legally mine thanks to his letter, I will go to the CCMA as there is a big case against him and I could stuff with him big time ... so now it is the waiting game, to see what he will give me for my million $ signature!

I have to meet him next Thursday to see what the next step is. Sigh, but I am calm and I know there is an end to him in sight, as in an end to me having anything to do with this horrible horrible man! All going well I get the car, I get paid until the end of the year and then I can claim normal UIF for 6 months, which works out more than Maternity UIF for 4 months. So I am holding fingers, toes and everything else and hoping it works in my favour!

And now

So last week my bosses wife and daughter were up to learn my job and Friday I sent them off (literally at the airport) with all my important files and order books and all, so I guess after 9.5 years of doing the same job, it now changes? Yikes! But part of me is relieved, but part of me is thinking - driving around all the time in my last 4 months of pregnancy, but I know I can do it!

Friday night I crashed so early I was exhausted, but Saturday we went to the shops and then started washing down the walls and filling cracks in the walls and sanding down all the cupboards and such in the baby's room! I am just so excited, it is taking a lot longer to prepare than we planned, but isn't that always the case. We bought all the paint and are going natural neutral colours, beige and such, but then will make the curtains and such more colourful and baby like. So now we can't really work on it much until we get home after our week away, but it is all prepared and they will come put in a new carpet after we have painted too, so very excited that we are now starting on the baby journey! As in doing things for it and such.

I have asked my MIL to come baby shopping with me once we back and they back from their holiday. As she is so excited and is jumping to come with me. Will also go 1 day with my sister. Just to get ideas and decide what to actually buy. As we have kindly been given a pram, cot, car seat, camping cot, so it is the little things now. Plus the baby monitor and clothes and nappies. Oh and sheets for the cot.

I can't believe I am now getting there. 22.5 weeks!

Just trying to ignore the work situation now that my main job has been handed over and focus on my pregnancy and health!

Scared to be happy

I realised this morning while brushing my hair. I am scared to be happy?

At 16 weeks pregnant I was ecstatic, we saw little Baby and everything was good, the next day this whole thing with my boss lands on my head, then the next day the whole thing with my friend loosing her husband after giving birth to their child and I haven't been that happy since. I am too scared to feel that absolute happiness that makes you want to jump for joy, cause I think in my subconscious if I am happy then something bad will happen? Does this make sense? I don't know how to get out of this?

On Friday I spoke to my mom and just sobbed and sobbed on the phone to her, made my poor mom cry cause she is far away now! But this thing with my boss seems to have tainted my pregnancy and it is so sad, I am so angry @ him for doing this to me. These are meant to be the best times ever, being pregnant and enjoying my pregnancy and all I can do is stress and worry about work and what to do? The not knowing is also a killer. I HATE not knowing. It makes me so mad. I always want to know things .... that is why baby is probably not showing 100%, cause I have to learn to stand back and be patient! BUT HOW???? How do you teach yourself patience?

So I think I am scared to be happy ... otherwise things might go wrong? How do I stop these silly thoughts?

Another week gone by

I was so good at writing in my journal and on my blog and now I have totally lost it! Has my life become boring? I have no clue? I am finding it rather stressful at the moment though.

So I went for my 20 week scan. I am half way? Half way? I always hoped it would happen and I would have a healthy happy baby at the end of my 9 months, but after my MC, I celebrate every week that goes by and I am still pregnant. My gynae spent a good 20 min on baby and checked everything. How he knows what it all is must take years and years of practice. G & I could see a few thing he pointed out and recognised, but in general we were just watching. Baby is always sleeping when we go for our scans. But low and behold as soon as we leave and I sit back at my pc, it wakes up again.

Gynae think it is a girl about 80%, but boy is she shy, does not intent to show her bits off to us. So for now I will mention baby as a she, but it might change at the next scan, who knows. The gynae showed us all 4 chambers of the heart and brain measurements and all, was amazing. It is a true miracle. She already sits like mom. 1 leg out straight and the other curled under her. Her little heart was beating 153bpm, which was amazing.

I even went and bought her 1st little outfit yesterday, I haven't bought a thing and thought come on B you can do this, so did and a little rattle. So I am now officially thinking in 20 weeks we will have a LO in our lives, to love and to hold and to cherish.

G & I are having fun batting names back and fourth, G is set on 1, but we will see. I really like it, but I don't like to have names set in stone until she is born. What if she doesn't look like the name we choose once she is born?

Anyway I am so glad it is Friday. I am going for lunch with my best friend and her cousin today with their babies. Think I deserve to get out and about after the last month I have had!

TGIF

Can the weeks go by any more slowly than they are? Actually I lie they are going past fast, just hating work, doesn't help me get through my week. Actually I lie again. I enjoy my work, just not the situation with my boss. That is what gets to me the most! Shew I lied so much there and I normally try not to lie! But my negative side comes out too quickly at the moment with this situation. 3 weeks and he has not said 1 word to me? He only communicates via email? I mean really. But anyway, life plods on and what can I do? Patience .... patience ... patience is all I must focus on.

My cousin came over for dinner and said I look the happiest I have in ages, which surprised me, but then thinking about it I had bad Morning sickness and was exhausted and I think bored at the same time, so this has brought the energy and blood to my veins as I have an aim and focus. So bad things are good in a backwards kind of way?

I gave my poor hubby a hard time on Wednesday night, poor man, wasn't his fault at all, just me being a bit hormonal I guess. Felt very unloved, but going to see Cathy on Wednesday and seeing how sad she is broke my heart and wore me down. Poor girl. But Keagan is the most gorgeous little guy and gives his mom so many smiles.

Weekend where are you?

Yikes the last time I blogged was yonks ago. Too much was happening to put things on paper, as my mind was swirling!

I am tired of being walked over by my boss and have taken a stand. He gave me my car on paper and now is saying no. So I refused his new offer and now he told me he is going to make my life hell and it is going to cost me all the money I don't have and taking em to arbitration. I mean really. How silly can you get. This man thinks that the world revolves around him and no more. 9.5 years of it and no more. I know it is going to get nasty, but I had to take a stand and lookout for myself! about time I think, but damn it is scary, I hate confrontation and I am more of a wall flower type person, so this is a new me coming out and I am proud of myself, even though I keep wondering if I have done the right thing as I still have to work for this guy and ja. Oh well will take it 1 day at a time and hope for the best.

My heart still goes out to my dearest friend Cathy, life has thrown you a rough card here and I am always here for you when you need me!

On my pregnancy side. I am 18 weeks today. Wow! I can't believe it! I think I can feel baby move, but it might just be gas, but more on the lines of baby now ... It is such a miracle!

To the ladies I have met online and become friends with. Thank you, you guys are what makes me get through each day! I appreciate you more than you know!

16 Weeks

How can time go so slowly but so fast at the same time?

Went for our 16 week scan yesterday and I must say watching this little human grow every 4 weeks is just too amazing for words! Dr showed us its thigh bone and stomach and spine and it was amazing. It had it's little legs crossed, so now showing what it is, but wasn't expecting a definite at this scan. I was thinking a little boy originally, now thinking maybe a girl? Oh well whatever it is, I am so excited that things are plodding along nicely! Just hoping and praying they carry on plodding along well.

G was just so precious he was standing at the end of the bed watching the screen and every time you could see something new, he would rub my foot madly, was very funny! He isn't a man of many words or visual emotions, but watching him yesterday, I saw a new side of him! Was so sweet! Was impressed that the baby had bones already!

Response

Scene as Jahni tagged me I thought why not!

Three names I go by:
Bel
Blendax
Billy Bob (my neice)

Three jobs you may not know I have had in my life:

Sunglass packer (London)
Functions co-ordinator, catering
Legal secretary (Egypt)


Three places I have lived:

London
Egypt
Durban (and of course Jhb)


Three shows that I watch currently:

Scrubs
Hero's
??? something Vet in NZ on DSTV



Three Places I have been:


Turkey
Belgium
Greece


Three people who e-mail me regularly

My boss
Cathy
Sue

Three of my favorite foods


Sushi
My mom's home made roast chicken
Salad


Three bloggers I think will respond

Kandis
Lameez
???

Three things I'm looking forward to:

Birth of my healthy baby
Summer
Chatting to my on line friends during the day

Congratulations

Ok now my friend has a name for her baby I feel I can post? If that makes sense.

She has a beautiful baby boy after a hard labour, with them not doing the cut like they promised, so she tore, ow ow ow! I am so proud of her for managing and producing such an amazing little boy!

The love she has for him is too beautiful for words, for someone who wasn't really planning on a family! I am so glad and so proud and so happy!

I know you don't read my blog, but congrats my friend! Wishing you many many years of happiness with your little boy! May he bring happiness, love and joy into your life! You deserve it, you really do. I so wish I could see you and give you and baby lots of love from a closer distance! Being so far away is hard.

You see my friend and I have been friends for over 21 years and been through thick and thin together. We even fell pregnant together, which definitely wasn't planned! But things happen and she has now got a little boy and my LO was due on Saturday. So I am guessing if I was still pregnant with my 1st we would have probably given birth together this week. Funny that!

Zzzzz Zzzzzz

Ok after pacing like a caged lion all of last night waiting for my friend to give birth! Getting an sms eventually at 1:30am our time to say little boy has arrived, mom worked hard but dazed and a photo came through, I thought ok now I can relax and sleep. Then at 1:30am I get an sms from someone close saying Your friend had a boy??? I mean like I didn't know ... no 1 and no 2 why sms at that time in the morning ... for what??? To see if I knew my best friend had a baby??? To brag she knew 1st??? What was she doig on fb at 1:30am ... haha! Oh well! Who knows other peoples minds, maybe I am being sensitive and she just was excited?? Ooo too many question marks!

So then I struggled to get back to sleep and am a walking zombie today. I feel like I could put my head on my desk right now and crash! But no such luck, work to do, washing to bring in, dinner to prepare and Belly Dancing to go to .... Just .... got .... to ...g..e..t going now!

Family "love"???

Yesterday I woke up in such a good mood and was bouncing around. Got into the office and I had an email from my 1 sister telling me I am depressed and not enjoying this pregnancy and I need help? Plus all sorts of other things. I was like WHAT? So I sobbed for 2 hours and sent a snotty email back, and then thought maybe it is just the hormones and felt bad so phoned her. Turns out she did it on purpose to get me to react???? I mean WHAT? And this is the sister who has been kind and caring? I don't get family? I really don't. Who needs enemies when you have family?

So last night I had a headache from hell and sinus this morning. My sinuses don't handle tears! Not those big wet ones that make you look like a clown with a red nose and just keep coming! Maybe that is why I tend to usually not cry? Hormones!!! They are interesting to say the least!

Anyway my other sister came over last night for a meal for her birthday, but she cooked, how awesome is that ... I think great! Was a good evening, I was just tired! And cold. I am so sick of this winter. Summer please come out and play!

But the good news is I got 2 nice and supportive sports bra's. From Ackermans of all places, but they were the most comfortable and weren't hugely expensive. My bbs feel so comfortable now, what a relief!

I am not usually 1 for junk food, but went and got a KFC rounder and ate it so fast, I have a sore stomach now .... haha serves me right!